I Should Have Taken the Day Off

I think I say that just about every morning when the alarm goes off at 4:10.

Another day of work.

Some mornings I can’t stand the thought of getting out of bed because getting out of bed means leaving the house.

Today’s Good Friday and it’s not a holiday for me.

I should have taken the day off.

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Life without Make-up

A few months ago I was convicted.

Convicted of not liking one of God’s beautiful creations.

I did not like myself.  There were several reasons why I didn’t like myself.  Some were legitimate.  Like that I am too judgmental and that I tend to interrupt people when they are talking.

There were also reason that were not legitimate, like that I thought I was ugly and too pudgy.

Now perhaps I am a little too pudgy in the middle. This is not a reason to not like myself. It’s a reason to start exercising again.  I “pudged-out” because I stopped working out.

Not liking myself because I was “ugly” was unacceptable.  I am created by God. I am His beautiful creation.

The legitimate things like being judgmental and interrupting I am working out with the Lord’s leading and His help.

I’ve started exercising again so The Pudge will soon be gone (or at least a lot less!)

The ugly thing, well has been harder for me.

The Ugly Truth

I wore make-up to cover up my ugliness.

To fit in with my friends.

To be acceptable.

To be pretty.

I did not like what I looked like which meant I did not like what God created.  When I realized this I realized I needed to make a change and accept myself the way I was.

I decided I was going to wear make up as little as possible.

My husband thinks I’m beautiful without make up.  He commented all the time early on in our marriage that he loved me just the way I was.  I would shush him and tell him I needed to put on my face before we went anywhere.

I was turning down a compliment because I didn’t like myself. I didn’t even realize I was being complimented. I just thought he was saying it because he had to – because that was what men do.

A Heart Issue

Not wearing make-up was not going to change the way I thought about myself. That was a heart issue.  Something that I needed to hand over to the Lord and allow him to reveal truths to me and heal me of insecurities and hurts that I didn’t’ realize I had.

Growing up with a cleft lip I got made fun of all the time in school.  I was never popular, never pretty and I never really fit in.

I strived to fit in somewhere and cover up what I really looked like with make-up so that people wouldn’t notice the scar above my lip.

An Outward Expression of Healing

Not wearing make-up was just my way of expressing to my flesh that I was no different with or without make-up.

Make-up did not make me.

I am beautiful the way God made me.  He did not make a mistake and he surely did not want me to spend my life striving to look different.

Full Circle

I’ve come full circle so to speak.

I still think make-up makes me look better.  It accentuates my natural beauty but it doesn’t cover it up.

I try to put on at least foundation and some blush especially on the days that I look tired or if I’m going somewhere special. Work and the grocery store aren’t special enough anymore. Church, date night, coffee with a friend –that’s special enough.

I want to look nice for my husband and make-up with a natural look does just that.

For me, makeup has become an accent, an accessory but not a necessity.

Do you wear make-up? Have you ever asked yourself why?

Until Next Time,

Be Blessed

Girlie Things I Can’t Do

I’m not perfect.  Here’s some proof. 

As I read other blogs from women who are homemakers, entrepreneurs, seamstresses, etc it can be very tempting to compare myself to them and wonder why I’m not good at the same things they are.

Um, that would be BECAUSE I’M NOT THEM. God made me especially the way he wanted me.  I’m learning to embrace who I am, who I’m called to be and to love even what I can’t do and love myself the way I am. 

Here are some girlie things I can’t do (or have no interest in).

Wrapping Gifts  – I just struggled to wrap my husband’s gift from our son and I was reminded again that I am challenge in this area.  Thankfully my husband is a great gift wrapper thus he will be wrapping the rest of the gifts again this year.

Doing my hair – If  women wearing flat tops ever becomes popular that is one bandwagon I might jump on. No matter what products I use or how much effort i put into it I always end up pulling it back because it gets in my face and annoys me.

Home Decor – I’d take everything off the walls and just have nothing. Hate trying to coordinate colors and having symmetrical lines…blah blah blah.

Crafts – I couldn’t come up with a craft project if my life depending on it.  Thank the Lord for google and other people’s blogs with ideas

Jewelry – I don’t need bling. I went through a stint a few years ago where I bought jewelry (thankfully not really expensive stuff) because all my friends always wore nice coordinating jewelry so I should to.  Wrong.  Now I’m trying to figure out how to sell some of it and recoup at least a small part of what I spent (note: reply if you’re interested in seeing what I’ve got! It’s Cookie Lee!)

Hugs – I work with a lady who will hug anyone for any reason.  Co-workers, clients, people at Wal-Mart.  Her hugging does not discriminate.  I hug my son, my husband and if I remember I hug the women at church. 

Nail Polish – For starters I never ever. EVER. wait long enough for coat one to dry before I apply coat two and then it’s sticky and it smudges and it looks like a third grader did it.  Secondly, it chips off in like two days so why bother?

So there you have it.  A not complete list of girlie things that I can’t do and am proud of!  Like I said, I’m learning to love me and this is me.

Until Next Time,

Be Blessed