Decisions, decisions. Life is chock-full-o choices we have to make. sometimes they are easy, clear-cut choices with very clear results. Eat the cake, gain weight, don’t eat the cake, well maybe you still gain weight….especially if you eat 8 of the 12 no bake peanut butter and chocolate cookies you just made……wait…I’m getting off track.
Anyway, sometimes you have a choice and the answer is so obvious you don’t even have to think about it. Then other times the choices are obvious but the answers and outcome they give are either not what we’d like to see, will need sacrifices we aren’t sure we can make and ultimately may mean we have to rely more on God then we’re comfortable with. It’s really a matter of us not trusting Him totally and completely.
God doesn’t always show us the map. Sometimes we just get GPS directions “turn right in 2.4 miles.” or how about “quit your job and I’ll take care of you.” Whoa! Did ya see that one coming?! Who in their right might does that?! I think sometimes we can’t be in OUR right mind when we follow Him, we have to be in HIS right mind. Our minds are fickle, feeble and filled with emotions. A friend did just that, quit her job on His prompting and He totally met her where she was.
Personally I’d prefer the whole map, let me figure it out and decide what the best route is. This shows my lack of leaning on the Lord. My need for control and ultimately my lack of trust in Him. I’m ashamed to admit it but it’s the truth.
The Lord has given me such a desire to be at home with my son. Six years ago I’d have told you it was crazy to be a stay at home mom. In fact, when my best friend said she was homeschooling not one, not two but THREE children I thought she was a fruit loop. (Luckily she knows how much I love her and knows that I admire her willingness to follow the Lord.) I know this is where I belong and Daddy is making it so uncomfortable where I am that I almost can’t stand it.
I know what the Lord has called me to but I can’t see down the road far enough to be comfortable with making a move. Lord help me, guide me and give me wisdom to take a step of faith.
Until Next Time,